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Let's talking about what's was really of the love

 Because most of “the signs” they tell you are garbage If you try to Google “how to know you’re in love,” you’re gonna have a bad time Because it’s mostly shit advice. Here’s a small sampling: “They’re always on your mind” This is infatuation. If someone’s “always” on your mind, you’re not focused on other Really Important Things. And that’s a problem. Real love fits into real life, rather than usurping it. It’s calm, not overwhelming. They’re your ‘everything’” Ditto. “You see them in your future” “When I imagined my future job/location/adopted dog, they were always in the background of my imagination helping me out with whatever I was doing. My future just didn’t really make sense without them around.” Well, I mean, damn. You fantasize long and hard enough, you can see anything in your future — like I could imagine moving to Switzerland to be a goat farmer. That doesn’t mean I should. The problem is that we’ve made “love” into a game of escapism, and measure potential partners by how

That one year, I forgot myself almost

Woke up in a dream, and I suddenly found, turn back head discover almost I forgot myself    in a dream, I was abandoned by a certain person, am in the corner of abandonment, and forgot。in crowded, none sense me exist in, I loudly shout, no see anyone back head。 I begin tense up, beginning to fear, why have one able to understand me, why none sense me at the exit?     just this time, I incidentally heard some whisper。 the sound is so light, I cannot see anyone, and also don’t know these sounds come from or where spread。 only sense, it‘s should from so far distance arrival here。     “look at you, a little the color didn‘t have, the person by always attract due to the something it's light, look at you, aways dark every day, don‘t have a little of the light, how to make another person know your exist”?heard this woman loud sounds, another one doesn’t have to speak words, just in here whimper。 gradually, the sounds far away left a piece quiet too。     This two-person is who? want to see

the person gone,lonely and bless only left

   You early soon will hold the other person's hands and kiss the other person's lips and embrace the other person's room, I also will wear up other people of the rings and wear up other people order wedding dresses and hold hands to be another new wife, Might you will kiss other face incident think up me the face form, I might also depend on other shoulders in front appear out your smile the face, but this all no relationship with you, this was  cruel of youth  era     there is a kind of attitude called “put down”, there are states called “give up”, there is a kind of wise called “humble”, there is a kind of happiness called “defend”, and there is a kind of glad call“simple”, there is a kind of happiness called “treasure”, there is a kind of beauty called “self-confidence”, there is a kind of touch called “share”, there is a kind of real emotion call“take care”, there is a kind of warm call“thanksgiving”, there is a kind of successful call“insist”     love does not the gam

There are a kind of emotion called "the love "

  There are kinds of the intimate, relationship too thick, but no destiny to be intimate friends, just incidents to talk on the phone, To speak a few don't relate to self stuff and do not relate to a certain person, in their heart understand yet。     there is a pal, It‘s intimate of the partner, each other realized and reliable, as the work and business left much time, in the heart each other praise opposite, but never to expression。     There is an internet mate, only through with phone, but in heart have each other, language to communicate, each other to encourage, in the night to a meeting glad, only have the smile and nod, with fragment language to the greeting。 There are many friends, passion up my the youth dreams in ever, the youth daily, sloppy accompany follow, the time flies gradually gone, cannot wipe off the memory, but cannot miss, together in a dream。     there aew a kind of love, we can‘t call “love”。     though have the same heartbeat, the same as having a crush, me

Your permission

I don‘t know if you remember those times after the passion, we lay on the bed, and you lay in my embrace: I ask you, get ready what children do you want? you said: how your plant so how many I have children。 At that time my double eyes the tears vague it‘s right, I didn’t have dared to wipe off the tears stay  corner  in eyes, It‘s afraid you will say to me“too weak ”, fear to say me: doesn't like a man: Are you well in far the place?   We are each other familiar, not pleasure ever, you always remember in the heart by first time touch, You think too much and always the feeling it‘s me owe you many, feeling that not should that to do; at previous you to say apart me, I didn‘t have since let you stay on left, don‘t know whether remember at ever you said the word? probably, It’s just of no heart words, I was had deep the touch。 You are a sorrow of the women, had the bumpy of marriage, put self-locked in jail cannot go out, I cannot go in here too, the most for you the accompany, let y

The red is raining fall down from head to foot

  The moon down raining yet、the red is raining, this rain seems like one generation and one generation of people who hardhearted killed too, and the sorrowful cry, too seem for this world、this building city of the past has many kinds of silent miss...     ”longweier” nowadays stands on that person of the primary in common position, the capital the all of under her eye to see expose, but her heart doesn't have any half-point for military victory so feel enjoy the scene。 vacuum hole、seems to take her all, all these it's a cause that person---north pole of the light     Yes, she doesn't love the north pole of the light, But It's not due to the north pole of the light to her not good or It's foe relationship, only blames the north pole of the light too perfect, perfectly It's didn't like one person, he just like one deity、one of letting all person admire、compliment、but not dare to reach of the deity。 you can come to his bodyside, but no method to reach him, beca

When the emotion become thick, the emotion gradual turn thin after

That a day afternoon, To seek for the many years who owe receipt of you ago, I opened most of the bottom layer of the drawer, and in the middle of position lay one pink color of the hard notebook, I not certainly and stand in there, turn off the primary page, one of pure white of envelope drop down, the right down corner wrote a person name“haijiang”     that morning the sunshine, so tender, the wind lightly blow the trees stem, and the bird lightly sing-song。 the “haijiang” embrace a bunch of rose flowers, so lightly and quickly come to here, classroom the atmosphere suddenly turns so quiet, The girls watched at“haijiang” and watched me, the boy flip his mouth, and loudly blow the whistle...     “haijiang” their face instantly turn flush, and he looks at me, just a silly smile, I shy down bow my head, pretended didn't see anything, after the table on appearing that bunches of rose flowers, also have an envelope letter, the right down corner write his name“haijiang”    We are toget

When pregnancy later

I  walk on the path where ever you had together walked with you, the thick sorrow taste skipping my shoulder, as apart from you that a day it's me actually...     Just like the scenery of sunset, beginning regretted, pushed to crime, but for me  in windy woke up so weak pain。 In this world, only one person still remembers that night July 6th, one person of a chilly night, frozen the heart, there is kind of the dead it's a too long time that sense。 in a dream who I heard you said love me sneakily at me near。 dear young children, You and still it's you, that guard “YY“and guard the “hero team” of a small boy, that sits down and waits for his mother to cook food and wash laundry small boy, that only will when I need something which says” love me” small  boy。 you own a giant and strong body but have an always not ripe of the heart。 dear fo young children, You said“watermelon it's your husband” I am your wife It's of watermelon。 watermelon is cute and luscious and sweet。

Whom pink red color of high heel shoes

   My name call“baola” and at this time it's lunching moment, My room It's dark black all, I am playing with an unknown name tape, at my house where a broken drawer had find out。     The tape slowly gradually showing, It's the mental problem of a beautiful girl who gradually appears in front of the camera, then the girl is running and disappeared, in the front of the camera shows a pair of pink high heel shoes, pink color, It's me the best love one color, this color describe belongs to cute and various of young girls the heart of me。 the pink color high heel shoes began to move, It's seems like after what the stuff, at this time I see a pretty girl too, I saw the pretty girl again once, this time just like frightened that form, she is running underwear shoes, she was the back pink high heel shoes is after her 。how should I do? the shoes、the pink high heel shoes, after her so tightly, didn't have to give her to the breath of the chances。 once didn't and the w

Eternal the snow

   Do the windows outside have snowed? I lie down on the bed messed up thinking, boring every day I opened my phone and 。wonder whether you sent me a message? at this moment, my ear hears “daolang” the song belongs to the old song “2000 year the first of snow”, so familiar that the song, high sounds and great, around me to listen so many times still enjoy admiring, however Now to listen there are some special meaning and emotions。 I know this because of the far distance from you...     at such frozen cold winter mornings, generally say the person who It's so difficult to fall into emotions, but at this moment, my heart and soul are still so warm、so comfortable,there are kinds of so want to hug the world of that sense。 I know this is due to the far away of long-distance of you...Yes,, I ever attempt to doubt this world and the love, even disgusted this world and love, because I think those It's disguise。 sure these It's not me about this world have some disgust, it's onl

The love of the spring

 This year of spring after all the last year's differences, the spring festive just passed, My wife will be going back pregnant on sabbatical from her workplace unit Dongchengg” gas station, our children will be born in spring, and she will enjoy five months of happiness with me。    I don't know whether be able to bear of one quantified the father, but I know she must be a feather the mother。 I didn't admire females and never did。 but carefully to think, though I have my self of excellent section too, turn to the life, specific and It's real of the life, which one point she stronger than me。 although she isn't special to requesting me, whenever have one of the father's heart、one of the husband's emotions, these of duty It's me no method to get rid of them。     Most things let a person so difficult to forget that those stuff in last year, we are along going come here, spring flowers and autumn moon romantic the time so less, when each other separate still

What's the shape should be the loves?

   What is the love?at this time ,she hasn't methods to understand that loves belongs which original?      Ever she to think the love It's a mystery and pretty,ever she to think the love should be breeze blow the maples,It's should be thin the water long flow。 but now she is loving ,already fall in love with that shape。    he frankly to her the love again once ,told her who so miss about myself;he sincerely expects again,expectly the far distance of her who possible give the more sweetness。    however opposite of her silent sink yet,she still don't know why for along together ?and how to insist this far distance of the loves。     She ever dreams several times about the love of sweetness,Ever desire the love exciting。 but at this time ,why only left confuse and fear?she wants to express her miss to him,but at last only to silent to face,because she confuses ,and because her naive ,and because she messes up。     she accidentally discovers still don't have in imagine t

My darling belongs her

 I again once with her produced conflict too, I know she will be using all of cruel language to hurt me。at this time I only will quietly bear her hurt words, Yes, It's right, with those cruel hurt words。 meantime at this time, We seem isn't the mother and daughter, It's an enemy。 from a young to grow up, I early used to those cruel words yet, I even can know what the next words scold me, however at this time of me, always quietly to bear her these languages bring to me the hurt。 anyone one sentence not speaking。at this time of me, always felt, she didn't understand me, and even didn't love me!  With regards too, this middle festive of the year makes my life so bad, I don't want to stay at home too, just can expect to go to school early, waiting so long time,, at last, It's going to be home, While departing the home that a moment, I also don't have to say any words to them, I walk to go out the door gate who never the head to back, only give them a back s