One of dreams, cruel the wound

 In reality, she and me have been separated from each are life essentials for two months yet, although don't have a formal procedure for divorce. she's heartless, It's my marriage with her for seven-eight years to hurt her by causes...Now I understand, she divorced at last time that originally, I was so sorrowful to seek her until one year found her, convinced and prompt let her go back home It's for love, because always too concerned, also because of a daughter too young, she demands one mother to love her. certainly, I understand, Now said to me It's too late I understand always....don't want to forgive me again, yesterday one day, she deletes Facebook and youtube It's my social connect tool with her, and mine phone number remove from her phone list yet, I cannot chat contact with her yet.....go to her company to seek her, she is a set of chilly face attitude to me, chilly let me the heart have more sour and painful...

    She separates for so many days, and I still feel so much pain and sorrow daily Just like can't hold down the same sorrow, I know life doesn't crush me, but she getaway It's crushing me of heart 

yet.......

  In the dream, That day I drive a car get off work, Entire was his image in my heart, When the car right now left the main lane, and enter in sample path,  Suddenly another car was in my direction drive comes, The car rate always fastly, and haven't slowly down, so consequence, I crashed another the car, Taken me to go to the hospital,  My sister has got an inform who come to pick up my daughter back to home, After I directly into hospital by ambulance,  I stopped breathing almost.

   My Sister left her tears, and ask me what do you want to say to me?  I told my sister don't to tell my mother and father, My Son didn't luck. Let my sister for daughter's mother call a phone, I want to see her, the sister said; You was hurt yet, you see yourself, If you don't miss her always, so you don't will so that, Now You want to see her. I said; "sister, you call the phone to her to tell her." my older sister has no method so call a phone her, then told me, she will come here for a moment. I can't wait for her, "sister, I left a message for her, in the Facebook record,

 sent message out failed." voice record put in here, "xian, I ever to said If what happened to me, will the first time call phone for you, but you still remove me from your Facebook list,  I Cannot wait back home you, If I opinion expected the same, It's really cannot wait you come back, Do you back home continue to hold this family? the daughter demands you and also has her grandpa and her grandma need care a bit, I don't know you

 whether understand the love and relation a one really cares about you, I understand my fault, If you promise, I will pay  you for the next lifetime, It needs you of this family, If you are willing back home, respond to me and send a message from The Facebook, tell me, You didn't will delete me again, so prove you have forgiven, but I really cannot wait for you, I miss you and see you again....."

  You coming, I have apart, forever It's escaped, Just said one sentence on Facebook; "If you go back home again, wait the one day people and things not alive, did you will regret it?" sister don't want a reply you, but the finally see you so sad and sorrow cry the whole the day, go pull you, go reminder you.

   Sad, Now It's really you sad, your tear, At the original, I ask you, If I die, did you will cry and tear? I don't want so many, just one drop it's enough. Now you really crying, I get that a drop of tearing...